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Rituals · April 11 · 6 min read

On stillness in the kitchen

Why my real practice happens before sunrise, in front of an old gas stove that needs persuading.

On stillness in the kitchen

My kitchen is small. There is one window, a wooden table that is too low, and an old gas stove that I have to talk to before it agrees to light. Most mornings, before anyone else is awake, this is where I practise.

People are sometimes surprised when I tell them this. They imagine a teacher of yoga must have a room, with bolsters and candles and a view of something tasteful. I have those things, in another part of the house, for when I teach. But the practice that matters most to me happens in the kitchen, in a long cotton dress, with my hands wet from washing the same teapot I have been washing for fifteen years.

What is actually happening

I am not doing postures. I am cutting fruit. I am waiting for the kettle. I am rinsing rice three times because that is what my mother taught me, and her mother taught her, and there is something in the third rinse that is a kind of meditation that I do not have a better word for.

The yoga is not the postures. The yoga is the willingness to be slow, in places where slowness is not rewarded.

I have a hand on the edge of the counter. I am breathing. I notice when my shoulders rise, and I let them fall. I notice when my jaw is tight, and I unclench it. I notice the small tasks I have been postponing, and I write them down on a piece of paper, in pencil, and put the paper in a drawer. I do not act on them today.

This is not a productivity practice. It is the opposite. It is the practice of not being productive for the first hour of the day, while still doing the small useful things that a kitchen asks for.

Why the kitchen

There is a reason I have come to love the kitchen as a practice space, and it is not romantic.

The kitchen is the room where my grandmother spent most of her life. Where my mother cried about my father. Where I learned to fold briouates, and to taste a soup without burning my tongue. Where I have, in different decades, argued, hidden, eaten standing up, and eaten on the floor. It is a room that knows me. It is a room that has held the whole arc of my femaleness — from a child being fed to a woman feeding others.

To stand in this room, in the early morning, with a hand on the counter and a cup of tea cooling, is to be received by the room. The yoga of the kitchen is the yoga of being in the place where you have always been.

A small invitation

If you have been pushing yourself to get to the mat — to the studio, to the early class, to the formal practice — and feeling like the day always wins before you do, I would offer this:

Try, for a week, taking the first ten minutes in your kitchen, slowly. Make tea badly. Stand at the window. Wash the cup. Do not narrate the experience. Do not call it a practice. Just be in the room, and breathe, and notice what arrives.

The kitchen is a sacred room, even if you have never decorated it.

— Ghizlan

· The journal continues ·

Once a month, a letter arrives — a small ritual, a poem, a reminder to come back to your body.

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